It's been 2 years...




















The day you left
I understood
This life is not
What we hoped for
This world is now 
An empty place 
It's so hard to 
Be in peace 
I can never 
Talk to you 
I can never 
Share with you 
All the heartbreak 
And the joy 
All the things I 
Got to know 
I want to tell you 
Since you left
Everything has changed 
No way back 
Illusions faded 
And new rays of 
Hope are shining 
Through the mess 
I will miss our 
Endless talks 
Your special ways of 
Making jokes 
Deep, understanding, 
Caring heart and 
Your bright soul that 
Lived for God 

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