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Long recovery

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 I have recovered from covid. Yes, I don't have fever anymore, I don't cough often and I do smell even my baby's nappy. However recovering will take some more time from chronic fatigue, anxiety and inability to focus. Covid attacks the weak points of the body. I am healing step by step from PTSD I am discovering the symptoms and effects of it day by day. By the way it is actually PTS, not PTSD as experiencing stress as a result of a trauma is not disorder. It means you have a healthy way of thinking. One of such effects I have just discovered is the moment I have been deprived of my womanhood. Strange enough, it happened only a few months or weeks after my marriage, in a rather intimate situation. My husband practically said that I was not interesting as I am. Of course he sugar-coated it in a joke, but something broke inside me. I was not the woman he was blown away from. He had previously played to me the most romantic song, he wrote me poetry - inspired lines and talked