Eastern European Muslim

Anita Moorjani was born on the 16th March.  In her family, in her community she learnt that the greatest virtue is to serve others, even if she forgets about herself and her own needs. She was constantly trying to conform to rules and expectations in order to be accepted and was living in a constant fear in case she didn't do well enough. This fear was her everyday life and it was justified by the most righteous and pious ways.   And then she got cancer.  She fought hard, trying every standard and alternative therapy, meticulously following the instructions so that it would really work. But her state just deteriorated and at one point she weighed 40 kgs, she couldn’t hold her own head and her organs started to shut down one by one.  And she passed.  What she experienced was beyond words. Really, it's better to read her first book, Dying to be me. I will only mention a feeling of unconditional love and acceptance. She felt she didn’t have to do anything to “deserve”

Thank you Cancer  For the reminder  Of what not to do  I didn’t take care of myself  And you came  And keep coming back  To hold me  With your cells  With your water  For me to be held  Hugged  Reassured  Because I felt lonely  And insecure  You were with me  When people left me  Thank you  Now I'm here  By my side  I'm holding my hand  And I love myself  I know I'm able  To do big things  And I'm doing them  So with gratitude  And appreciation  For your precious work  I am taking back  My position  Of taking care of myself  You have done a wonderful job  You opened my eyes  To where my life was heading  To a cliff  And then, the abyss  This is the destination  Of everyone  Neglecting their needs  I'm still learning  I know what not to do  But still lacking a little  Know how  Of being by my side  Of keeping myself safe  And living large  And loud  And real  But don't worry  I'm getting there  So really, I got this  Thank you  I can take it from